To Your Success
And if I sit here on the eve of the last day of the year. I am one of those "who reflects on the past year and all the things I did not do. The number one item on my list – NOT LOSE! I can not remember when I did not lose weight on my list of resolutions. There was not to blame anyone but myself and I never want anyone to feel sorry for me.
I’m fat because I like to eat! In addition to being a Latina (everything we do food) with those built in curves, I realized that I eat, if I am happy or sad. Food is my friend – independently. And now? More kidding me that the scale is broken because it moves – or – get off my ass and move!
It makes me crazy when I watch Biggest Loser or read "half their size." I wonder – "what the hell is wrong with me – is it so difficult that I can not do? Not at all – I’m lazy! Its so easy to be comfortable in the skin, but at the same time, feel so bad.
I’m not sure what it is about food – mostly sweets – that I want. When it comes to eating meals, I do very well. I can eat chicken / vegetables, etc … but I am snack. I love the junk, you can get one of the stores! Oh, and I do not need a reason to snack – I do because I have programmed myself to eat continuously. It is as if I am not happy if I do not have something in my mouth.
So why the blog? Maybe if I make myself responsible for this blog, to all potential readers, I might take me more seriously. Of course, I want to look good, but now I want to feel better. This year I had more pain and noticed that it was much more difficult to take with my 2 years than it was several years ago. Although I have no problem with my age, going a little slower sucks! Apart from that – I was fat for at least 30 years of my life. I need to prove to myself that I can beat the weight. Geez, how many years I’m going to lie to myself and then feel the shit on the New Years Eve?
Change my diet must be a new way of life for me. I need to take time to read the labels, or search for how to prepare healthy meals. I need to take the time to go walking, weight and work on my arm. I will not deceive me and being the first 10 books. It takes more than that – I WANT IT need more than anything I wanted in a very long time. It is my daily mantra.
So the difficult part – now I’m 240 lbs! YEOW – that’s what it’s there for everyone to read the Internet and be mortified. I am, but if I do it right, next year this time, I would be happy to be 180 lbs strong.
Here is my problem to you – join me on the way down … … to be serious and share the ups and downs with me. Do not be fooled, this blog is not become a "thin Minny" – it is becoming more active and healthy. If not now – when?